eight days after what I saw happened and I think I'm finally ready to let myself think about it.

I don't know,maybe to me it felt like you,betrayed my trust?cos' on one hand I was fighting every bad comment about you that you're not like this or not like that because I thought I knew you better than they did but I don't.I really don't.wait a minute,do you even know who you are?because if you don't,pls stop trying to show me especially who you want me to think you are cos' I am sick and tired of defending you or coming up with I don't know,pathetic excuses for you.pathetic.you make me so pissed and upset at the same time and I hope this was all over-reading of things and that you're actually still you,just moving ahead.

you know right now with things like that but in a different time period I could feel happy for you,and I try my very best to force out feelings of joy but I can't

pls give me lots of time

and space